My Feelings Are Real

 

My Feelings are Real

My thoughts are also important

My Feelings aren’t “everything”

Autism – Today

My Feelings are part of being within my Body

No Longer Imprisoned – as my father taught me

Intellect – Not Emotion – Matters

I no longer feel a need to prove The Point

The Brain within my head – ain’t it all,

Nor, really tis not Most Important (any more)

My Heart – My Spirit – come from within me

I often Experience – am in my - Deep Feelings – in The Moment

Several evenings ago, in contrast

To that morning –

I felt Really Heard, Really Cared for

That felt incredibly wonderful

That morning –

I was silenced – and felt deep anger – towards one

Autism – in my not recent past (before I knew I was autistic)

The Feelings – were rarely more than barely felt

Multiple causes then – most related to the Deep Pains of Decades

Of not loving myself

Positive growth is challenging

& Most Important for me

Minimizing mistakes

Is helped

By my slowing down

And Deeply Listening

To my heart – my spirit

Meaning – not “happiness”

Meaning includes joy,

Pain, hurt, sadness, anger, love

And so much more

While I don’t welcome pain

I do learn  - so much

From hearing more and more

Listening more and more deeply

Feeling is real

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