I Do Not Know

 

I do not know

Which Path

I am going on

Sadness,

Uncertainty

Being

Being who I am!?

Being Me

Stubborn Me

Thinking For Myself

Feeling

Feeling Deeply

Caring a Lot

(Invisible)

Though it may appear

Living in the minutes

Am I stuck in the minutia,

As well

Or?

I don’t know

Caring

and Being

Don’t always

Lead to clarity

at least

Not in this Moment

Not in these Moments

Peace

and Being at Peace

Isn’t always possible

For me

Privileged that I am

and perhaps I have

Too Much Privilege

Its Overflowing

From the Bucket

leads to (perhaps)

Too – Too Many Choices

Too – Many Opportunity

So Lucky,

In a Broad Sense

So Isolated, in Being

Amongst the Others

Who Seem to have

Simpler Choices

Don’t think

I’m “retired from life”

My major – physical

Strength

Climbing up The Steep Hill

Literally

as well as figuratively

Leads to more Hills

Steep Ones

of my Heart.

Having Escaped

From (solely)

My Head

Opens up Opportunities

While Shutting Down

Things

Things, that are far from Clear

Today

Tomorrow

May be a Blizzard

of Brisk Winds

Winds of Change?

Don’t Feel Stagnation!

Don’t Feel Stubborn,

but am I stuck

in Stubbornness

Freedom

Is anyone really Free?

Free of Doubts?

Free of What?

Whatever?it?may?Be!

Being – is Meaningful

Being – is Challenging

Coming Home –

Is it really – Being at Home?

Or is it a Mirage

What is the Mirage?

If it really is a Mirage

I do Care

Don’t know

Where my Caring

Will lead me

tonite, tomorrow …

and Beyond

Into – the Worlds

of Taking Risks,

Hoping not to Lose

But, Lose What?

I don’t Know!

I Do Care!

I will see

Perhaps, someday

Someday in my Future

Meanwhile …..

8/11/2024 – 9:46 pm – Pacific Time

 

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