XV - Much Better - To Listen

To Listen

To Listen

seems simple, but

To Really Hear

What is said –

The Feelings Coming out of the Words

is sometimes Challenging

and Occasionally Impossible!

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The More that I know,

The More that I recognize

How Little – I Know

-

I Know

That I Don’t Know

The Lived Experience(s)

Beyond My Nose

My Nose Can Seem

to Grow Longer and Longer

as I Deceive Myself

When

I don’t hear and feel Myself

Closing Me Off

from any Chance

of Hearing You

Because

Our Truths May Clash

or be Overlapping

or At War

With Each Other

Both right

and/or

Both Wrong

and/or

Permutations, Combinations and/or More –

or Less

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When I Really Listen

I Can Grow a little

Regardless of the Outcome

in the Moment(s)

Presenting Themselves

Weaving in

and Out

of My Consciousness

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Listening with Some

is a Blessing

as Our Spirits Converge

I will cry

And Laugh

Feeling the Deep Connection

Of Meaning

Whether – our realities

Our True Lives

are Similar (rarely)

or Very Different (commonly)

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Listening to You

Is

Much, Much More Important

for Me

and Much, Much, Much Harder

-

I Struggle

and

Plod On

-

Feeling Both My Failures

and When I’ve Actually Done

Both

My Best – and

Really, Honestly Quite Well

Yet I Hear

Acrimony – Anger, Resignation, Frustration

Memories – Bad Memories

of The Past

My Past

-

My Shame

My Attempts at Atonement

Aren’t Enough

Aren’t Close to Enough

to Open – a Path

Towards

Something,

Something

That Can Blend

Both

You and I

On the Rivers

of Gentle – Soft

Water(s)

Where

You and I

Can Feel Heard

-

I Try to Learn

From Both

Successes

and the More Common

Feelings

of Failure,

Emptiness

Tears

Pain

-

My Heart is Opening

and Growing

Deeper

Despite

How Really Hard

it is

On This Path

-

This Path

is The Only Way

-

-To remain static

Trying to Hold On

to the Present

and Through it

To A Distant

Weak – Not Good

Past

Is No Way,

Tis Worse than No Way

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My Myths

Reflect My Fears

of Being

Really Being

a Person, a Male Adult

I could look back upon

at my End

With Respect

-

Pride Can Mask

Self-Failure

It can also

Reflect

Listening

Really Listening

and Hearing

the Most That I Can Hear

-Whether Enough

or Not

Might Become

Me Finally Becoming

Real

Whether Alone

or Not

-

I can’t control

You

Your Needs

Your Desires

Your Heart

Your Spirit

I can Try,

However things Turn Out,

,Me – Becoming

My Better Self

isn’t and Won’t

Be Easy,

-But

I Am Trying,

and

I will Try

More Seriously

With More Passion

as Long

as I Can!