I'm Afraid We're Losing Our Little Boy
Bubba has helped us through rough times. He has remained an optimist. He gives a lot! He is silly. He reacts to other dogs - rarely - showing that he really likes to be with them, but then his furiously wagging tail - shows his deceptive holding back is a sham. He loves attention, but on his own terms.
Now - he knows, he really knows. He stays closer. It is so sad! My tears are overwhelming me.
Bubba - you've given us a lot of joy! We will let go - when we need to but it isn't easy.
After I wrote the writing above I had to go out with my little boy - and we had a nice, very long (for recently) walk. We first went to Berger Park. Little Bubba - pooped (a little), peed a moderate amount, left is scent and was very much - together. He wasn't totally sociable, with dogs that we passed, but he smelled some and tolerated being smelled some.
Bubba - barked ferociously - when I went into a store - leaving him looking in the front window. He was so himself - so full of life, I was very optimistic - for the half hour or more that we were outside.
Across the street from our building - he wagged his tail strongly at first and socialized a little with a nice friend. Gradually - they tolerated, but ignored each other.
We came back to our bed- with the - old-untouched food - and Bubba relaxed and slept. After a good while - I made Bubba some fresh food. He looked at the food and stood near it for a few minutes but didn't touch it.
My tears came again in waves!
I brought him back to the bed - with the food on the bed also. He slept - some. I gave him some (liquid) - supplement that should ease his pain a little at least. He's licking his chops.
I'm scared that this is - the end - he needs to eat - tomorrow - if not this evening! I'm heartbroken.