Tears?

My tears

are visible

during some movies

and

at other Odd Times

some sad

some happy

some strange

-

When Wounded

and

Really Hurting

Generally

I look - calm,

Even detached

-

It is Dangerous

to Expose

the Tear ("tare")

or Is it Terror

The Emotion

is raw

Churning Inside

-

My affect

can be Problematic

taken to mean

I don't care!

I do

But

It is

as One feels

Intent - is Not

(seemingly) relevant

Fears - Struggles

Prevail

Making Me irrelevant

- 

I'm sad.

So sad.


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